Saturday, December 27, 2008

Coming out of the Cleft

Its been a while since I have blogged, but now I'm back from nestling in the cleft of the rock (Songs of Solomon 2:14) and am ready to tell of His beauty and how He has really changed my life completely, changed who I am and pretty much everything about me.

Selah ~ Contemplate

I testify the God I know is not boring. Look around you - creation declares His imagination, His creativity and His beauty. People who have not experienced Him personally - even within the church - perceive Him as boring (I did for a long time) as they have not truly experienced what it means to bask in His love and let it change you inside out. Those who have not learned to listen to Him, or who have a twisted perception of His character will misjudge Him this way. But for those of us who have tasted and seen that He is good will never be the same.
(Job 42:5 I had heard about you with my own ears, but now I have seen you with my own eyes. ... )

He is amazing, exciting and immeasurable in His mercy and love!
Having seen a little of who He is, I am abandoned to Him now, there is no going back.

As I have been prayer jouralling over the last month, the Lord has spoken to me many "poems".
To be honest, although I have always enjoyed poetry and took English literature as my major at University (I focused on plays and prose)- and so I have to confess to knowing little about the structure of poems. Hopefully the intellectuals of you out there can forgive my ignorance and simply let the simplicity, beauty and truth of the words He has spoken through my pen penetrate your heart (as they have mine).


Songs 6:3
"I am my beloved's, and my beloved is mine."

Man of God

A man of God is strong,
exercised in the place of weakness,
fighting every battle and rejoicing in every victory
on his knees.

A man of God is loving,
he walks pouring out mercy and love,
uncontaminated from God's heart

through his, a pure vessel.

A man of God is honorable,
indeed he wears costly integrity as a badge,
its marks him as an abassador of Heaven,
he speaks words of truth and strongholds crumble

A man of God shines
He is one amongst 10,000 ~ he is a lantern,
the light of Christ shines through him,
he is a contradiction of strength and humilty.

A man of God is armed
with the sword of the spirit and the shield
of faith, he wars daily against our most
subtle dangerous enemy, protecting the flock

A man of God is fearless
he walks with boldness and the confidence
of Christ, he is unashamedly different and magnetic~
people are drawn to the Jesus in him

A man of God is Joyful
he loves the place of worship before the
throne of God, with music and dance
he is unafraid to be undignified.

A man of God - bears His image

date: 11th Dec 08

Inspiration: King David - One of the most interesting men in history, he was given the high honor of being described as "a man after God's own heart". A hansome man, yet one of contradictions. He was deeply sensitive, artistic and abandoned in his love for God. Yet a strong leader and warrior who had the devotion and respect of his rough, tough, blood thirsty army. Imperfect, he stumbled often but confident of His creators love, once convicted of his sin, he always ran straight back to the heart of God. A poet, lovesick for God he is the author of most of the Psalms.

Warrior Bride

She will follow Jesus.
In her hand she will carry the
double edged sword of peace and love.

She will fight. With the power of the
Holy Spirit, with gentleness and mercy
she will overcome evil with good.

She will listen intently to her commander,
protected with the shield of faith
and the helmet of her salvation.

She will run to do His will,
on the sandals of peace
without fear, she will run into His heart.

She will rescue the oppressed and
destroy the stongholds of the enemy.
By the proclaimations of her mouth,
in Jesus name, they will fall.

Spotless and white, robed
in His righteousness, fearlessly
she marches daily to battle.

She was bought to be His, but is no slave.
She was transformed by His presence
and is sustained and satisfied by His love.

Loyal, she will be His warrior bride
and He will never forsake her.
Weak in herself, she will warfare
on her knees.

Date: 9th Dec 08

(Songs of Sol 4:9
"You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes, with one jewel of your necklace."

Revelation 19:7
"Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to him: for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife hath made herself ready. And to her was granted that she should be arrayed in fine linen, clean and white: for the fine linen is the righteousness of saints."

2 Corth 11:2
"For I am jealous over you with godly jealousy: for I have espoused you to one husband, that I may present you as a chaste virgin to Christ."

Ephesians 6:12
"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."

2 Corinthians 10:3-5
"Of course we are human, but we don't fight like humans. The weapons we use in our fight are not made by humans. Rather, they are powerful weapons from God. With them we destroy people's defenses, that is, their arguments and all their intellectual arrogance that oppose the knowledge of God. We take every thought captive so that it is obedient to Christ.")

The Jonah in me.

Jonah ~ beloved of the Lord
Jonah privledged one
Jonah one who speaks with God

Jonah oh Jonah why do you run?
Jonah why do you doubt?
Jonah will you seek to be the one to counsel God?

Jonah seeing the mountain heads the other way
Jonah runs with human perception
holding the hand of logic
Jonah knows better than God

Jonah oh Jonah why do you run?
Jonah why do you doubt?
Jonah have you forgotten I am with you?

Jonah after the strorm,
swirling in the waves of confusion
Jonah remembers that the Lord
delights in mercy
Jonah cries out "daddy!"

Jonah oh Jonah why do you run?
Jonah why do you doubt?
Jonah, I have weighed the earth in scales
no mountain could ever be too great
Jonah, I am.

Jonah, oh Jonah run, yes run!
Run to these arms that long to hold you
Run to this heart that adores you
Run in faith to me.

date: 9th Dec 08

(Isaiah 40:12

"Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens? Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance?"

Isaiah 64:2
"I opened my arms to my own people all day long, but they have rebelled"

Micah 6:8
"He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God." )

Although Jonah was the main inspiration of my poem, I am also writing from experience. As Ginny Owens once put it.. "when did I stop asking for your wisdom, as if your words were meant for someone else." There have been significant times, where I have had a clear word from the Lord, but in my earthly logic/wisdom I argue with God in my heart, questioning why? Of course, He is all knowing and I am limited, and always right. But it has struck me that really by questioning I am distrusting that He is good on what He says (as Eve did in the garden when she believe that God was holding out on her), by questioning I am making God limited, making Him as a man. But He is not a man, He is God. If we stay within the boundaries of what we can do, budget-wise, logic-wise, ministry wise we will never see the glory of God on earth. We need to step into the realm of "Lord, if you don't show up - we're screwed." The realm that requires God to be God. To expect OT style miracles in our lives, to expect God to move and God to Speak. If we want a life ruined for the ordinary then we need to start looking for God in the ordinary and when He shows up the simplest thing can become an extraordinary time for testimony.

Ring the Bell

I will ring the bell
The bell that says I'm Yours.
I will call others to worship,
sounding out that He is worthy.

Proclaiming fearlessly
starling to attention,
the bell it does not hide
nor shrink from its calling.

It does not worry
about causing offense with its sound,
but boldly it calls out
with the song it has been given.

I will declare Lord and ring the bell,
I will tell of what You have done to me,
I will tell of a life changed in Your presence,
a heart that didn't know You,
now satisfied.

(Job 42:5

"My ears had heard of you
but now my eyes have seen you.")


Your Love is everlasting
cleanses me from sin
Your Love is so beautiful
Purifies me from within

You are Yaweh - Mighty God
yet delight in the details small.
You are Jehovah - Emmanuel
Upheld, when I stumble I will never fall.

Why do You care for my brokeness?
Mighty Father, God of all~

Why does Your heart long for me?
How is it You hear a voice so small?

Robed in my Saviours Righteous blood
I enter Your courts with a song.
Assured of Your welcome my Mighty King,
as though I've done no wrong.

Worthy, my Jesus, beautiful one,
Saviour won't you draw near?
Saviour, my Jesus, perfect love,
humble King, Mighty Warrior.

Date: 7th Dec 08

(Ephesians 3:12

"because of Christ and our faith in him, we can now come fearlessly into God's presence, assured of His glad welcome")

Deep Rooted

Unwavering, not swayed by mens words,
no longer blown about by doctrine Lord,
but deeply rooted in Your love.

Nothing can separate us,
no sin
no demons
not man
nor angels
nothing can take away Your love.

Will I ever comprehend
the depth, the width,
the mighty power
of the love You lavish on me

Lord, open my eyes!
For Your love has changed my life
my heart - I am not who I was.

I died,
was buried
and Christ rose in me.
I walk, dance, run and sing with Him
And when I stumble,
He does not let me fall.

May my roots continue to deeper grow,
into the soil of Your unending love.
Let me draw my nourishment
from You, empower me by Your Word.

date: 7th Dec 08

(Ephesians 3 : 16-21 NLT

"16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!")